So it's now 2017 and I could not be happier that 2016 is a thing of the past. Although this year has left me in a flurry (yes, already, and it's only the 5th) I feel like this year has a lot more promise than the last.
Something about this year is catching my hopes and holding them dear. I can't tell you that I know what it is, nor can I tell you with any confidence that I plan on finding out what has caused this little burst of optimism. Nevertheless, I feel a change and it has left me reflecting on the new year.
Okay, so it's only five days into the new year, but what's wrong with self-reflection this early on? I don't see a problem with it. And in fact that is what is making this year so different. I normally just jump into the new year with a "fresh start" and a lot of half-ass resolutions in the back of my mind.
Not this year.
No. This year I seem to have a different perspective, a new thirst for self-care, and an overall higher awareness about myself and what surrounds me. Maybe 2016 really did change me whether or not I give it enough credit. But this year I realize that I need to set myself up for success and keep my mind present to be able to achieve what I want. And that is something, I've got to admit, I didn't have the years previous.
So what exactly do I want this year? Well if you want the longlist you've got to ask me another time when I am willing to write it out. Since I can't be bothered now, I'll leave a shortened list here for you (or me, rather) to hold me accountable:
- BE KINDER TO MYSELF (keep in mind I am only human, I make mistakes, and sometimes I deserve a break).
- DO MORE OF WHAT I LOVE (that means more reading and writing and less criticizing myself for not living up to my ideal image of a reader or writer).
- TREAT MY BODY RIGHT (only put in things that will nourish me and help me grow stronger and allow me to work harder)
- BE PRESENT (I often get caught up in the craziness of social media and I admit I do fall under FOMO. It leads to a vicious spiral of forgetting where I am, what I have, and appreciating the things around me... that stops now)
- LET YOURSELF FEEL (stop being hard on yourself for feeling certain ways... it is natural and the only way out is through it... feel it and let go).
There you have it (or I have it). What does that mean for the year to come? Who knows! But so far I have made a few changes in my life that have allowed me to continue to follow along with this mindset, while also allowing myself to realize when I have messed up. Instead of giving up on the whole, this time I have set more realistic goals and behaviors I want to achieve and exude- which overall allows me to grow and persevere even if I have minor set backs.
And all of this is with the idea that I keep loving myself in the process. The good and the bad. Regardless, I will grow from it, and that is what matters. Being present this year and gathering more headspace is the main focus.
I'm being entirely honest when I say I think this year will be a realistic year. No more half-ass resolutions about losing weight or reading a certain number of books. This year I want to gain a better relationship with myself. And I'm off on the right foot.